I will fly like an eagle…

Saturday, June 7, 2008 at 4:48 pm (Uncategorized)

I’m nervous. I am! Nervous about Slovakia, nervous about life, about college, about friendships, about romantic entanglements, about work and everything that involves the life of Megan. I don’t know why or when this started happening, but I woke up this morning insanely nervous. I tried everything I could not to be, but nothing has worked. See, when I get nervous I get sick to my stomach. I can’t eat because everything just doesn’t taste good. I feel gross and self conscious and I haven’t found anything that helps…

except for my Savior. I think He enjoys doing this to me because it makes me return my focus away from myself and back to Him, something I find very very very hard to do. This time, a friend from mission trip last year posted this verse in his blog, and it caught my attention and made me want to kick myself. 

Isaiah 40:28-31–Do you not know? Have you not heard?  The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Now, for some reason, no matter how many time I read or think of this verse it always makes me feel so silly. Why do I worry? Why do I freak out over little things? The God who created the ends of the earth doesn’t, and He has to watch out for all of us! I just watch out for myself most of the time! But when I take my hope away from Him and place it in friends, circustances, and what I want to see happen, everything I dream fails.

I will hope in the Lord and He will renew my strength. He will cause me to soar like an eagle, He will cause me to run and not grow weary, He will  cause me to walk and not be faint. It doesn’t say He might. It says He will.

when will I learn that and keep it with me always?